The foreplay to expectation

It starts with a conception, a very convenient image where everything seems positive, good, bright and you can hardly find flaws..its perfection enchants you, to the extent that you not only expect now but eagerly await to face it, live it, be in it!

Reality connected to the present with a tiny thread seems irrelevant, something that yoy want to just get over with and set aside like any other inconsequential thing in your life. All you can point out in it is bitter,ghastly at the face of it, in fact, you wouldn't even shy away from calling it miserable.

So there you have it, a weighing balance in your hand with the former and the latter battling it out, but where is the fairness? you are already biased arent you! But as nature and all the fairness embedded in its roots, as the concept of justice not delivered by anybody but delivered by everybody all the same demands, your bias does not go far..your conception crumbles on its feet, thirsting for a drop of hope, but alas! you are not ready to provide it with anything but rejection.

But the question that haunts me is, can you completely eliminate either of these two, your hope and your being? I guess not, although I won't be surprised if someone claims that they can, because we are just too good at convincing ourselves! No one needs to be taught, we see it everyday with our own eyes with regard to almost everything around us, "the little we know, probably the happier we are". Maybe some might differ. Alright "the little we know the more inquisitive we are", how does that sound? But the irony is that this curiosity, more often than not, breeds disappointment, bacause with every question you ask, your expectation rises, but with every answer you get, you just reliase that after all, things around you are too ordinary for you to seek what you might call the 'nirvana of your being', the biggest living cliche probably.

Lets end on a positive note though, no one ever defined this extent of perfection when it came to something as subjective as happiness, so whoever is happy with whatever, all that matters is probably the fact that you are happy!..ngegativity is a breeded worm, somehow it can feed on you even if you have everything in this world bereft of a strong mind and your need for a balance between your extremely volatile mind, your sense of content, and at last,what this is all about, the foreplay to your expectation!